2 B or not 2B dont miss the razor strap

Coming from Stoke Newington, London, that is on my birth certificate, now a fashionable address, the purchase of a house is now one and half million dollars Australian, in1967 I owned one London 4 story house, one 3 story house, a mansion flat all Victorian properties, it is of interest that although I had this property and a vegetarian restaurant, I was beset by low self esteem, as far as I know I no longer have this particular ailment, although the value of my present ownership of property is by far lower than what I had in 67,  it is as then I had this raw self like a sore exposed to the elements of sensitivity, what plagued me is the incredible impoverishment that one suffered as a result of the persecution of the adult World, it seems as if the philosophy of the sins of the Father will be upon 3 generations, is significant, why if you know that how can it stay with you, it just does, depending on the severity of circumstance, or recent the women I was with taking me to an out back town called Maryborough, to me a town lost of its once historical significance, gold I believe, now most likely surviving on growing marijuana, peering in a shop seeing a strap 600mm long and 60mm wide, I explained to her that this is a cut-throat razor strap, it is made of leather used for sharpening open razors on, this is what my Father beat me around the head and body with, a reminder of the good old days, you never get over this as this happened in ones formative years, but one remembers, one does not forgive nor endorse, similarly the same with Nazis and concentration camps, you do not forgive as to my mind you are not required to do this, one wonders if I had myself been born in those circumstances would one be the same or is it reincarnation?, frankly, one way there seems reincarnation and in another it seems implausible, except that it depends on the situation, the problem with reincarnation is it possible the ruling Elite take refuge in this possibility and justify the willful subjugation and oppressive domination of the other, I had for some time misunderstood the saying of Shakespearean saying to be or not to be and so on now, I had taken this as death as in this life as existential not physical death? what do you think?.